Hope

As the words “Oh come to the alter. . . His arms are opened wide” dance softly in the background and the stubborn fight of bed time summers with sighs and slowed breathing. I sit here doing my evening Bible reading. I quickly come across this verse. Hebrews 6:19. Once again I’m stopped and am in Awe! Why?

Because the word Hope has appeared again. No it isn’t surprising to come across hope in the Bible. But it is that since Friday night as I discussed my vision board I made a year ago with friends and shared the word Hope, I have begun to see and hear it over and over again!

I don’t know where it is going but I can tell where it has been in my life. Why was Hope written on my vision board? Because without hope, one becomes hopeless. What does a hopeless person do? Resign. Resignation leads to apathy. And apathy is less than even hate. Apathy is the opposite of love not hate. Hate is a passion and a misguided sense of purpose. Apathy lacks purpose, love, and a future.

I pray you have never been to a state of pure apathy caused by a sense of hopelessness. There is a famous psychologist who studied this concept. In a sad designed study a dog was set in a box without a way to escape and zapped. The dog fought and try to find a way out until he didn’t. Eventually the dog laid down and just laid there being zapped. Once the dog had resigned the dog was give a chance to escape the zaps, but by now the dog had stopped trying. So even with the chance of freedom the dog laid there and allowed itself to be zapped. That right there is where some people end up in their lives. So hopeless. And truth is, I have been there.

But it was at that bottom I learned to look up. In my life, that point brought me to know God. At first it was slivers of light through the darkness like refraction of light from a prism. The closer I got to Him the right the light. Then Hope sprang Firth. The more trust the greater my Hope!

What started as small as a mustard seed grew and rooted and grew. Till one day my hope lead me to leap of the ledge with nothing but God to build me a parachute!

So the world Hope I wrote on my vision board represents what I received as a gift in my darkest times and even more what I hope to spread to the world!

So take this verse and this story today, if you are struggling with anything: doubt, fear, shame, anxiety, depression, stress, discontentment. . . And grasp this sliver of light. There is a hope for you have a purpose and a gift to the world only you can provide. I pray over you today, allow yourself to believe again. The world needs you!

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭15:13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/rom.15.13.niv

A brownie a day keeps the fat away!

Ok so that’s is not scientifically proven but there is truth behind it!

How you make ask? Well it comes down to this simple notion. I love brownies. Seriously though, it’s all natural ingredients baked into a yummy goodness of chocolate delight!

How does that have anything to do with weight loss or keeping weight off?

Number one it comes down to quality of food. Number two it’s about enjoying your food. It is so important that you know the ingredients in what you eat. Not just macronutrients or calorie counts. But the basic ingredients. Are they plant based or organic. Are there dies or chemicals? These are important. The more toxic the food the hard it will be for the body to digest. Also will put more strain on your liver, gut, and kidneys. Excess stress can cause a Lowe immune system, increased desire to eat, and increased cortisol levels (thus will cause your metabolism to slow not good)

Now when it comes to enjoying your food. This is such a simple concept but worth heaps of joy and benefits in your life! Once you find high qualities foods, enjoy them!

If a wheatgrass, kale, pea protein, mango smoothie is not up your alley, your mind is literally going to convince your body that it is being poisoned. Ok maybe not that far but pretty close to it! All those super foods in there will practically be wasted and you going to feel crappy that you had to swallow that down. However is a organic grass fed burger on an ancient grain roll with fresh veggies and some baked or steam veggies sounds doable. Then undoubtedly your body (and tummy) are going to be so much happier! Find the huh quality of the foods you love and enjoy meal time! Stop beating yourself up over calorie counts, bad foods ( food is not the enemy toxins are!), or comparing your plate to others.

Eating is a very personal choice and our body’s want and need different things. Heck God gave this Earth so much beauty, delicious flavors and foods! Go out and enjoy it! Now I’m going to go eat a brownie. Yum 😉

Updates!!

Young Living has done some incredible updates to their starter kits!!

Number one:

They added a makeup starter kit! There are over 80,000 chemicals in the US and less than a fourth have actually been tested!

As women we want to feel beautiful, touch up with some fun colors, but we also don’t want to be poisoning ourselves! Best choose: Know what is in your make up and skin products!

Number 2:

They added the desert mist diffuser to the line up of Starter kit diffusers!

Um bout time!! Thank You!!!

Number 3:

They added a sample of Thieves house hold cleaner! This is a must have item! Seriously it replaced like all cleaning products and it is toxic free! Plus it cleans incredible! Don’t believe me google the chicken counter thieves test! MIND BLOWN!

Number 4:

Citrus Fresh and Raven are now a part of the 11 oils you get with the Premium Starter kit! These two are incredible oils! I literally use them all the time! Although I love Purification and said to see it go. . . It is still totally available and a definite must have! Never-the-less citrus fresh can also help cleaning, freshening the scent of a room and is very very uplifting! Plus adding it to water helps boost your metabolism!

So I am excited about these changes and You really need to get a kit today if you have not jumped on the toxic free Living bandwagon. May seem fading, but in truth it is a change you will never want to go back from!

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I am Enough

These are the hardest things I have ever had to try to say. For deep seeded reason, saying I am enough to myself is a struggle. Just getting the words out.

When I tell people my story many have responded that I should write a book or movie about it. Quite crazy the desperate and terrible places I have been to feel loved or wanted. And as I age, I become more and more of a porcupine, keeping people very far from me. The lows I have settled in relationships and the times I lost my voice and allowed others to make my life choices, dictate my steps have left a gap of unfulfilled dreams but no regrets.

I have become so close to my Heavenly Father. From so many abandoning and abusing me, I learned to lean deeply into Him. And when He is the only one you have, your relationship with Him can never be lost. It’s a most beautiful thing. I have conversations with Christians who are in shock of how I speak to Him. Telling me I cannot say that to Him. But I am His daughter and He is my daddy. He knows me better than I know myself to deny the words I feel in my heart or mind is lying to someone who already knows the truth. I can come before Him open and raw.

I’m not here for pity or reveal in my relationship. Au contre! I come to show you that no matter how you feel about yourself or how alone you feel. God loves and is there.

Years of struggling with looking in the mirror, with believing the cruelest words spoken over me, and believing I was a failure from repetitive accusations. I have once again believed the dreams laid in my heart as a young girl. They have never changed. The dreams were suppressed by words of harsh broken people. I always contain a little fire within my soul, deep burning passions. Ambition, and strength.

I wanted to be honest, meek, loyal, forgiving, obedient, and nurturing. Ha funny how those can be beaten into doormat, hated, abandoned, and taken advantage of. Nevertheless, the truth remained deep within my soul a purpose greater than myself.

Many nights of Prayer in December made me face these past demons and learn the dream again. This time now awards or titles or certifications needed to prove what was there all along.

Perfectionism, goal attaining, Adair’s of being alone- they don’t hold a bar on your worth. No does the size of the group who hangs around you. At the end of the day there is only One you have to be accountable to.

Honesty has cost me friendships and other things, but I have always been blessed by God for He searches the heart. I keep people at bay from fear of the past but I know I love deeply for them more than they will ever know. But God sees that. He knows.

Each day, as I face the past, and move towards the future and learn to say: I am enough. God is able to heal this wounds to allow me to better in the future.

So say it with me. I am enough.

And begin today to walk your own journey towards believing those same words about yourself.

God bless.

“Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭3:17-18‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/2co.3.17-18.niv

Check out the documentary Enough with Chonda Pierce

I Knew You Were Trouble

Yes you, I am talk about you. Haha Na I’m joking. But in deep thought this evening the song popped in my head. Now I wouldn’t necessarily select Taylor Swift as a profound evening of deep thought, but learned along time ago to go with my brains thought processes lol

In the song, a young girl follows down this rabbit hole of bad choices following the wild and crazy life of a narcissistic party guy who brings her down and gets her into troubled situations. Nevertheless there is a deep thought through the pop music and sweet girlish voice. . . Loosing yourself in pursuit of feelings.

Have you ever lost yourself to the world? Fear? Shame? Doubt? Wild abandonment? Pursuit of what you thought to be love? I have. The trouble tale for another time. But today let’s lean into the idea of 2018 beginning a refocus and reacceptance of who we are as a person. Settling into our imperfections and rekindling the dreams and passion we hold most dear in our hearts. Maybe you’re not meant to be the next pop star or travel the whole world with six kids in tote. However, maybe traveling outside of our routine for a change and chance to meet new people and spend time with your kids in a new way. Maybe singing locally to support a good cause or at your church to lead others in profound worship. Drawing for the love of it. Dancing with reckless abandonment on a beach barefoot with only the sings in your heart because you can! The beautiful thing about youth is the passion.

Take a moment today yo reflect, pray, and rekindle the passions in your heart. Yet instead of walking into the next situation of trouble use your wisdom and experience to gauge those passions to healthier life choices that light your soul on fire!

God made you unique and placed the desires in your heart.

Troubled

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