Mission Driven Heart

I have a heart for loving. Nonprofits, Mother Teresa, Refresh, Oprah, Ellen, Martin Luther King Jr. and on and on and on the list can go of those that have influenced and/or touched my hearts. Oprah actually mentioned that as a young adult she had opened her hand and said to the Lord, Use me. I just loved that! And that is the point I stand in my life right now. Use me, Lord.

At the same time I have had to learn to use my over active mind in a very structured way for many many many years. It was not until recently when I was reading Harv Eker and it pointed out the mindset of BOTH. Having the ability to solve problems and develop the chance to have your cake and eat it. Usually that is perceived to be around a negative connotation right up there with “Grass is always greener”. But he had a point that I could not shake.

I am an INFJ, a rare personality type according to the Myers Briggs psychological test, I have lived through many many varying experiences in one life time, and I have the heart to help others. This pretty much means. I am passion and driven to help a lot of people. Narrowing down my passions has been a struggle for years and I know it is why I have never been full contempt in any one job. I love it, I excel at it, and I work hard. Nevertheless, I always get restless. I want to do more.

I get that focus is a word I am really honing in on, but I am learning that for me, I can hone in on a few things very deeply. This fulfills a need in my soul to challenged, engaged, and of course, helping more people!

Crazy stuff, I know! If you’ve gotten this far I bet you are thinking, why this gal is way to into herself. But that is not it! I wrote this to expand why my why is big and my projects multiple.

In the words of Dr. Mike ” Don’t tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon.”

Moving forward I cannot wait to see where in the Universe I will go and would love nothing more to have you along side with me!

Look forward to up and new content! I cannot wait!

Hope

As the words “Oh come to the alter. . . His arms are opened wide” dance softly in the background and the stubborn fight of bed time summers with sighs and slowed breathing. I sit here doing my evening Bible reading. I quickly come across this verse. Hebrews 6:19. Once again I’m stopped and am in Awe! Why?

Because the word Hope has appeared again. No it isn’t surprising to come across hope in the Bible. But it is that since Friday night as I discussed my vision board I made a year ago with friends and shared the word Hope, I have begun to see and hear it over and over again!

I don’t know where it is going but I can tell where it has been in my life. Why was Hope written on my vision board? Because without hope, one becomes hopeless. What does a hopeless person do? Resign. Resignation leads to apathy. And apathy is less than even hate. Apathy is the opposite of love not hate. Hate is a passion and a misguided sense of purpose. Apathy lacks purpose, love, and a future.

I pray you have never been to a state of pure apathy caused by a sense of hopelessness. There is a famous psychologist who studied this concept. In a sad designed study a dog was set in a box without a way to escape and zapped. The dog fought and try to find a way out until he didn’t. Eventually the dog laid down and just laid there being zapped. Once the dog had resigned the dog was give a chance to escape the zaps, but by now the dog had stopped trying. So even with the chance of freedom the dog laid there and allowed itself to be zapped. That right there is where some people end up in their lives. So hopeless. And truth is, I have been there.

But it was at that bottom I learned to look up. In my life, that point brought me to know God. At first it was slivers of light through the darkness like refraction of light from a prism. The closer I got to Him the right the light. Then Hope sprang Firth. The more trust the greater my Hope!

What started as small as a mustard seed grew and rooted and grew. Till one day my hope lead me to leap of the ledge with nothing but God to build me a parachute!

So the world Hope I wrote on my vision board represents what I received as a gift in my darkest times and even more what I hope to spread to the world!

So take this verse and this story today, if you are struggling with anything: doubt, fear, shame, anxiety, depression, stress, discontentment. . . And grasp this sliver of light. There is a hope for you have a purpose and a gift to the world only you can provide. I pray over you today, allow yourself to believe again. The world needs you!

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭15:13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/rom.15.13.niv

Reality of an invisible Disease

You don’t look sick:

Oh no I just have Fibromyalgia, degenerative disk disease, bursitis, tendinitis, herniated disks, anemia, vitamin deficiencies, arthritis, and Ehlers. . .

No big just means ever system in my body requires 10 times longer to heal from every bump, running can land me bed ridden for a month, I have the energy of a dying person, and everything hurts all the time and the doctors throw about 5-8 meds they want to curb the pain, alter your mood and brain chemistry, kill you liver/heart, become addicted, and majority of the time they still don’t touch the pain. . .

If you never understood how much effort if causes me to get up every day just know this flu going around felt like a runny nose with a bit of a hot

Flash. . . Everything else felt the same: why? because it always hurts, I’m always tired, and life never stops for anything. I still moved, I still cleaned, I still took care of my kids, still cooked, still went to work. . . Well I took a few days off to not spread infection.

It’s the cards I have been dealt and sometimes I envy the wheelchair rolling by in a store. Sometimes I wish I could wear I big sign saying “it hurts please help!” Sometimes I want to crawl in a bed and stream mind numbing tv shows and never have to move again.

I fight every day to get through the basics and still fail. Do you know how hard it is for an ambitious, athletic, perfectionist to not be able to complete her todo list because she physically cannot move. At times yes a joint or muscle will just stop responding! How bad I want to just go run and anything more than a random 50m dash for fun on a really good day will take you out for a month!

How people critique your expenses on supportive supplements but fully support you going and getting drugged up so you can have a psychotic break and never be able to work again? Seriously?!? Really

This body is the weight I will bare for the rest of my life but thing is, God knows I’m a survivor and a fighter. I don’t quit. I won’t quit. Especially encouraging people to address their wellness and health of their self and families. I promise you your body and those around you need to be toxic free as much as possible at least in your own home!

I feel the effects much more quickly especially when I go to a “none clean” those houses people think are REALLY clean (bleck means more toxic!)

I don’t want pity, understand sure, compassion great, but in truth I want freedom for every from the poisons that plague society!

Go toxic free today!

Living by your heart

Feelings are just a signal, a sign a warning or awareness. They should not guide your actions or decisions. So many times we find ourselves believing our heart is our feelings. But the heart is deeper. Our heart reaches into our soul and our dreams come alive in its depths!

However, it is not an illogical feeling driven spacey arena! Compassion is caring for others pain and acting upon it. Grace is love and forgiveness in action or in action (if you first feeling was repayment). Love is sacrifice, unselfish, thoughtfulness (require to think about someone!), and not jealous.

God created our hearts and is the true example of living by your heart. The Bible is the greatest love story. It tells of How the Lord of everything, have His son in order to defeated death and get a chance to have you in Heaven with Him forever!!

So Living by your heart is not some reckless abandonment of logic nor an emotional roller coaster of drama and death (like a very famous teenage tale of woe), but to pursue your deepest desires placed on your heart while living out a life that pours goodness, sacrifice, love, grace, compassion in action!

2018 is upon us! It’s time to live your life to the fullest! Let your heart free from the bondage of closed doors and also in full control of our smarts in a purpose drive direction for the betterment of all!

May God bless you and others through you!