Nine years later

Happy Veterans Day:

This time nine years ago I was preparing to go to #bootcamp. From sunny ☀️ #florida I made the trip to #chicago to spend 10 weeks in boot camp. Yep I was there through the winter. After a bunch of immunizations, cafeteria food, and marching through #snow ❄️, three wisdom teeth extractions, and a chronic cold that turned into a sinus infection. . . My legs started to give out. We all assumed shin splints, a few days marching in these shoes right here to give my shins a break from the boots. But it didn’t help. I pushed through my end of boot camp finals and past but the pain didn’t stop. After boot, I went on to schooling. I was placed limited duty, and the medication trial and error began. The extensive labs, medical tests, arguments with doctors and looks of disapproval or disbelief ensued for years. Family, friends, co workers. . . All of them couldn’t fathom -and many didn’t care to try-

Living with an invisible disease is the more discouraging, self worth crushing, dream crushing thing I have ever lived through. Everything hurt, all the time. That soreness after a three hour workout, plus the sunburn from a week at the beach, plus delivering a kid, plus stepping in an ant pile, while mosquitoes attempted to fly around and bite. . . That’s what I had. If you laughed or danced for a min or went to a theme park- you were lying about the pain. But the truth is some days you have enough guts to know you’ll be bed ridden for a week but God forbid you be stuck locked in your #home another moment without hope for the #future. And eventual it got to the point where the doctors had nothing left to say. According to their tests I was great. Their drugs had terrible side effects and many were rules useless by their tests but they promised it would help. No they don’t, they don’t help! So I choose to fight for myself, my life and my kids. With the same passion I brought to my fooor routine as a competitive #gymnast. With the same selfless desire to serve and #bravery to take on the world that brought me into the military, with the same trust in my body to have two children naturally I stood up for myself and said NO & found plants #hopeforthefuture

Nine years later, I pulled this pair out of my sea bag and began. It’s not a marathon yet, but it’s a future filled with hope and a purpose.

Haters, Bakers, and Holiday shakers

Hey how are you?

It’s December. This month can bring out the worst in people. It can bring out the depression, the chill, the Scrooge’s of the world. It can also bring out the closet singers, really tacky clothing, and also obnoxiousness! Please don’t give him another drink!!!

Nevertheless, it really is a season like no other. The joy, love, community, and the lights!!! Gosh I love the lights!

So how are you doing this season?

Well for me it is a hard time. December can hold so many memories. There is something about this time of year that can bring out the best and the most challenging times in our lives. Whether you call or the holidays or Merry Christmas. Whether you play Christmas music 24/7 or switch radio stations just to avoid “those annoying songs”, this time of year stirs inside you.

I hope that as you walk the chilly streets. I pray that as you glimpse the twinkling lights. I wish upon a Christmas star, that this year it will be a little bit different. A little bit more amazing than it has ever been. Rekindle the magical joyous feeling with a whiff of peppermint. That a snowflake on your nose may wisher to your heart you are pure as precious child. That the lights may glow the beautiful heart with in you to shine how incredible you are!

This December make it one to remember!

Love the haters, enjoy the holiday baking, and join in with those crazy shakers! Grab a cup of cheer (whether it is a Ningxia shot or a glass of wine!)

Let’s choose today to make it not the best time of the year but the best of our years yet!

Discouraged?

Sometimes life things don’t go the way we plan. Guaranteed for refill motivated and empowered and we push and push and then nothing. Those are the hardest time for me. I muster up the strength and the time and I push and I grit and I see nothing from it. I’m highly motivated by meeting the goals and seeing something come from what I’m working. When on I don’t; I don’t sit well.

Ah but I don’t write this to be negative, the point is exactly the opposite! It is in these moments, it is in these times, that I realize that I have taken on the burden of life by myself!

I picked up my bags. I took off running ahead of where I need to be alone without the one I need. These moments of drain and self doubt, it is in these moments, that I know and stop, “oh I need to rest. I need to wait. I need to trust.”

So before I knew God these are the times that would bring me down. These were the times that I would break and these are the times that I would just want to quit. However now that I know the Lord my God my Father, my Comforter, my Protector, my Provider; I realize when I have pushed myself and I ran to the fullest and I hit the wall and I stop and I start to feel discouraged; it is time for me to rest. Not quit. To look up and trust. Look up because it is in this time but I know I know I know God will never let me go! Thank you Jesus!

God’s promises always come true. As long as I am doing what I am called to do and staying in relationship with God. The discouragement will melt away. I pretty sure it is the devil whispering in my ear that I’m not enough. That I have once again failed. But now I am created new in the image of God wash clean of my sins and so are you if you’ve been baptized and you except His love! We are no longer dead but made clean and new and beautiful in His image!

God’s plans are better and more than you or I could ever think or imagine. God has us in the palm of His hand!

Today look up and Pray

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:6-7‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/php.4.6-7.niv

And know He will be there and you will fulfill every step, every plan, and His promises will always come to be!

21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” (‭Isaiah‬ ‭30‬:‭21‬ NIV)

Now

Hello Beautiful,

Yes you, the lovely wonderful person who is reading this article right now. I want to point out a serious truth you need to know. Something you need to hear, but really need to grasp and understand.

You are loved.

You have value.

You have worth.

RIGHT NOW!

God sees you and cherished you right where you are at.

There is no when I am successful of skinny or perfect. There is not when I have a clean house or my children listen. No not when but Now! You are love now.

And God has a plan and purpose for you and He will meet you right where you are Now!

You are Loved.

You have worth.

You have purpose.

NOW

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭139:13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/psa.139.13.niv