Let Go and Let God

Let go and Let God I heard for the first time about five years ago. At first I would say it over the big obstacle I was facing. At that time my husband I abandoning myself and our children. Then the daily small stuff that annoyed me. But today the meaning is something much more powerful and meaningful.

You see, I didn’t see that this statement pertained to my whole life. Letting go of your life over the hands of God sounds preposterous from the world view. “Well you have to work, you have to do this, it’s your responsibility to do this, don’t be lazy or a fool” and as well as all that motivational speeches sound they are truly a prison cell.

Don’t get me wrong I have every intention of working hard. I always have. I was the honor roll, honors classes, competitive athlete, military leader through boot camp, etc etc. I enjoy working. But not working for the sake of working. Worst of all to me is that set time. You have to be here at this time and cannot leave till this time. I don’t know about you but that point right there drives me crazy! I understand scheduling a meeting or holding a class at a certain time, yes I understand time is essential. But what if the meetings are done, the paper work finished and filed? Go home to your family!! Lol I suppose for me it is in essence an entrepreneurial spirit I didn’t realize I had before. I like structure, planners, and promptness, but I believe life should be lived not lost to the clock.

So after years of making it just barely. I’m finally embracing this phrase to the fullest. I have search my soul, I have prayed for hours, sought mentoring advice, and let go of the world’s ideas. Nothing in me regrets and I will definitely miss those I loved dearly. But am sure I will see again. And I am stepping out into a season of living with passion and purpose but about all I’m giving my life over to God. It is no longer my will, my struggling to figure everything out and scrap and run the hamster wheel of “life”

No more. I am letting go of the world view that says I have to do this and I have to do that in order to be respected, a good mother, a proper hard worker, stable, provider. WRONG!

I am worth to be respected because I am a human. And we are called to love and respect each other.

I am a good mother. I may not parent the way you do or believe as they do, but I know I take the utmost care of the kids God has placed in my hands to raise.

I have always worked hard and if anyone thinks and less of me then they don’t know me. My priorities are different from yours most likely and I won’t bust myself for the sake of business. But I will and do work my butt off.

As for stability. Life was never meant to be comfortable or stable. Jesus said the trails will come! I’m not the rock and I am not the provider. Those belong to God. I am simply a steward. And not I am going to unbury the gifts He has given me and I am going to step out on faith and trust that when I invest my skills, talents, heart, gifts, love into the world: that investment will reap abundance.

Lord here is my life!

So yes I am no longer teaching elementary special needs students.

I am technically by the worlds standards: jobless

But in my Lords eyes, I am fully open for business. I have let go and I am letting God!

If you ever have any prayer request or want to learn more about what I do please feel free to send me a message. I would love to hear from you!

God bless!

Vulnerable

Hey there stranger!

It has been a long while since I have had the chance to sit and do my little writing thing. Why?

I ventured on a journey over the past few months. I took on the female lead in a local play; written by a local play write, Tom Kline. The story was pulled from the author’s personal experience expecting his first child. Yep, I played a young married girl expecting.

As a mom, I got to relieve many many moments of being pregnant. As a divorcee, I got to recall the fights, love, and tales of that adventure into parenthood. Let me say it was tough! Many times the directors would comment on my somewhat lack of emotions in a scene. Little did they know the effort I was having to put forth just to get words out. That the stoic face was a boundary blocking the world away from the flood gate of emotions raging deep inside. The stinging lines of words once uttered in real life bombarded at you over and over and over as you rehearse the scene day after day.

As the stage lights turned on that opening night though, things settled. I was ready to open up to the world a side no one but my ex had seen. To showcase on stage the experiences, though not all accurate to my story, but the feeling, emotion, etc was there. And like that I stepped into a new place.

I felt some isolation melt away. I had exposed fears, trials, my heart as best I could while keeping true to the character I was actually playing.

The release was needed.

So I apologize for the lack of words or encouragement or connection. Yet it was a season of self examination and growth but learning it’s ok.

Can’t be a proper oily post with mention to an oil 😉

Young Living has an oil called release and its diffusing right now in my office as I write this. I highly recommend that you reach for this little bottle of delightful and soothing scent if you know there are parts of your story you need to let go.

You are love.

You are beautiful.

God bless!

Best Year Yet!

Good morning beautiful,

Here it is, the first day of January! It’s a new year and so many memories and adventures await! Really does a one second make a difference, at midnight it may not feel like it, but for those who choose to celebrate beginnings every second counts.

Now is the chance to evaluate, pray, dream, and change. Small is huge in life. They say habits form us. The small mundane tasks we don’t even think about. That’s what makes us? Yes.

I would love to hear what you plan to do, what you plan to become, and even more so how you are going to get there! Some people pick words, some goals. I say do you. Do what you love and how you love to do it! Check lists, vision boards, books, gym membership, travel savings jars, so many things can come up to help you go to the next steps. Here are a few things you can also add to make this year the best year yet!

1. Smile!

Yes drop the rest B face! Yep we get caught up in worries, troubles, trials we forget to smile and it actual become a habit not to! Start off by taking a few minutes each morning when you wake up to sit and smile. Trust me! Life changing but so simple!

2. Get the toxic stuff out of your house this year!!

My first suggestion of course is use Young Living products!! But to be honest I just want your family safe and healthy. Baking soda, vinegar, Castile soap are basic cleaning products that go a far way!

3. Pray!!!

Leaning into God can move mountains and give you peace or strength like nothing else in this world. The heart pains tugging at you soul usually mean there is a God shape hole in your heart for it longs to be in relationship with Him. Prayer is powerful.

Looking forward to this amazing year with you! Would love to hear your words, goals, and ideas!

God bless!

Haters, Bakers, and Holiday shakers

Hey how are you?

It’s December. This month can bring out the worst in people. It can bring out the depression, the chill, the Scrooge’s of the world. It can also bring out the closet singers, really tacky clothing, and also obnoxiousness! Please don’t give him another drink!!!

Nevertheless, it really is a season like no other. The joy, love, community, and the lights!!! Gosh I love the lights!

So how are you doing this season?

Well for me it is a hard time. December can hold so many memories. There is something about this time of year that can bring out the best and the most challenging times in our lives. Whether you call or the holidays or Merry Christmas. Whether you play Christmas music 24/7 or switch radio stations just to avoid “those annoying songs”, this time of year stirs inside you.

I hope that as you walk the chilly streets. I pray that as you glimpse the twinkling lights. I wish upon a Christmas star, that this year it will be a little bit different. A little bit more amazing than it has ever been. Rekindle the magical joyous feeling with a whiff of peppermint. That a snowflake on your nose may wisher to your heart you are pure as precious child. That the lights may glow the beautiful heart with in you to shine how incredible you are!

This December make it one to remember!

Love the haters, enjoy the holiday baking, and join in with those crazy shakers! Grab a cup of cheer (whether it is a Ningxia shot or a glass of wine!)

Let’s choose today to make it not the best time of the year but the best of our years yet!

Now

Hello Beautiful,

Yes you, the lovely wonderful person who is reading this article right now. I want to point out a serious truth you need to know. Something you need to hear, but really need to grasp and understand.

You are loved.

You have value.

You have worth.

RIGHT NOW!

God sees you and cherished you right where you are at.

There is no when I am successful of skinny or perfect. There is not when I have a clean house or my children listen. No not when but Now! You are love now.

And God has a plan and purpose for you and He will meet you right where you are Now!

You are Loved.

You have worth.

You have purpose.

NOW

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.”

‭‭Psalm‬ ‭139:13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/psa.139.13.niv